First of all i want to say that this site is a great idea... I have spent days on the internet looking for a free support group of people that are going through the same thing that i am... I eventually did find one and it is great but A healther us sounds great to me as well.. Thanks chelle for the invite...
Oh man where do I begin?
I guess everyone is tellin their story so let me begin with mine...
Since i was a little girl i have always been chubby, my family always said it was baby fat and it would go away and some of it did go away but unfortunately found me again...
In Highschool I thought i was big but as I look back on pictures now i cant believe how small i was. (oh to bethat small again)
When I was 18 I dropped out of highschool and things just started going downhill from there... I lost what i thought was the love of my life at the time, my mom kicked me out of the house and married a guy she only knew for 4 months, i had to move an hour way from my friends and my new boyfriend, i had lost friends, my grandma passed away and i became extremly stressed out.. I then was diagnosed with a stress and anxiety disorder and still to this day take medication for it..
The list goes on..
So what do alot of people do when their depressed? EAT EAT and EAT!!!!
Thats all i did, it was my comfort zone, it made me feel better when i was sad... I started eating all the time.. when i was board, mad, depressed, before bed.. (which is so bad) It became a bad addiction and i was getting bigger and bigger and i didnt even care... well i did care but not enough to do the work to loose it.
I am totally ashamed and disgusted with myself ... I ate my way to diabetes and high cholesterol and high blood pressure, this huge amount of weight gain has made me a different person then i once was... My friends and family notice the changes and wish i could be happy and back to myself.. I calculated it all up and i figured out that since highschool i have gained 100 pounds...
Thats horrible!
On monday Feburary 26 2007 I decided it was time for a change.. It has taken me all this time to realize it but finally i have come to my senses... I have changed my lifestyle and I'm not lookin back. I'm so incredibly SICK of having all these health issues due to my weight, I'm only 25 years old!!
A doctor once told me that I was living like a 60 year old (health wise) can you believe that???
On March 5th 2007 I went back to the doctors and was weighed, I was up 6 pounds, I couldn't believe I was up after how good I did all week..
I'm not going to let that get me down though i have to keep on keepin on!!
As of today I am down 3 pounds:)
Thats my story in short form.. I will be doing alot more posts though!!
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Thanks for sharing, Hollz!! You sure have had a bumpy road, too, eh??? I think it's amazing how that even when we do gain weight, it's not only our physical appearance that changes, our personalities change...our emotions change, like we are more sensitive to ...everything!
The medical issues that go along with weight gain, high cholesterol, high BP, diabetes, etc....SHOULD be enough for us to say....that's it, I'm losing weight....but it's not easy.
You are doing a great job! That 6 lbs gain was prob just the different scale!! But still, I know that is hard to see. A 3 lbs loss is awesome!!! You can do it. I think the think we all (well, myself anyway) have to realize is ....we didn't put it on over night, it's not gonna come off overnight :) Hang in there....oh, and thanks for being a contributor! :)
Maybe the 6 pound gain was just your body getting used to the changes you were making, especially if you were exercising.
Like I told Sandi, we can just take things one day at a time. That's the only way I can really get through it.
Three pounds is incredible! Good for you!
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